THE STREESS , THE DRAMA , I AM THE DEFINITION OF STRESS

Not worte on here for abit , wel a day lol , just been so busy what with school and courswork and home and stuff , ive had no time to my self at all , soo ill take ten mins out just to do this!

I got my mate to block this sight so no one could see it , i tried blocking it agen and agen and agen! but even when i go on it now it says that im not aloud anywho !

Im not very well , taking theese pills which i got from the hospital , there surposed to help but there is a risk aswel .They make my emunne system weaker , this isnt surposed to happen for another few weeks yet but its kickin in already , ive got a cold and its bloddy end of summer , virus's can attack my system alot quicker now and can do an awful not more damage , and because im streesed and under alot of pressure its making it worse , the doctors want to bring me in to hospital but there is no way i can afford the time off school at all , i will get weaker and weaker over the next few months thats a pritty scary thought but anyhu fingas crossed il b ryt (Y)

Jeeees i have about 20 college application forms lien on my floor which need filling in :( :( the thought of leaving skwl is actually pritty scary but ill b ryt (Y)
God i wanted to do hair dressing and beauty but ive been told thats a dead end job :( which puts me off and ive put an awful lot of thought into it and there right my mum is an ex - hair dresser and she even said its a dead end job. so now im thinkin lawyer again , hmmm but i just dont think im clever enough to do that but if i do get the opertunity to do that i really will give it my alll :D butt omdz 7 years of training , that means i wont reallly get much time travvling , so again im think child phycololgy , im so bloody stuck , i havnt got a clue , so im gna have to get on the internet and get crakin on look what courses are available to me eyy !

I get up at 6 - 6 .30 ish , i come home around 4- 5 ish ,when i get home i do around 3 and half hours of homework im that tired that i have to go 2 bed , i have no time for anything !

The boy !

Ive also thought alot about this to , amungst an awful lot of other things , i am not ready for another bf, i do not have the time for one , i dont have the energy either , all i am doing now is getting my head down and concentrating on things that really matter in my life , but how do i tell him cos hes sayin love u now , i dont feel anything towards him so u just say nuff lv 2 him i think that offends him a lil but i dnt wna ....... i dnt think hurt is the word, but yeah hurt :s :s :s lol

I was bought a lomo camera the other day , i was soo excited about getting it , but im going to wait untill the weekend to open it all up because if i did it now , there is no was i would get anything done . but my dad has got it now which is a good thing for me lol .


Im soo tired now , sooo soo tired i have so may things that i am worrying about now and thinking aboout , anyhu i best crak on with courswork , which needs to be handed in on friday :( oooh noo , looks like i will b up all night doing that

Awww , i was talking to some one to day and they kept lookin at me weird i was like why are you lookin at me like that , awww and they said god you have beautufull eyes , that made me a lil happy lol .



jorja - mercedes -x