* MY DAD *

My dad left me on the 13th april 07 , when he chose to walk away from his wife and children for ever and decided he wanted to live the single life. His lien and his cheating story are still be told today , dif girls he has cheated on my mum with , breaks my heart to here them it really does , to no that one person , who you thought cared for you , loved u and never wanted to hurt you does hurt u , breaks you , tears you apart.

He's been arreted for abuse on my mum , there to much to say about what a nasty, eveil man he really is.

He has never ever let me down , ever since i have been a little girl if i asked him to take me some where and he was busy he would still take me , hes always treated me lika princess always , cared and i always felt loved by him , he always made me smile always , always take the mik , he always told me the truth , he never hurt me , he was such a wiickked dad , he was someone i thought of as my age not s dad age , i always thought of him as my older brother, and so it did all my mates like at parents everniing or sumit , i would get sum lad sayin to me how cum ur bro as cum , or this lad i was goin out with chris sed 2 me , sumit bwt him being my bro he new me inside out but yet he stil thought he was my bro or cus aw sumit!

so why now , 2007 when i have my gcse's cumin up , wht does he decide to let me down , my does he decide to ruin my life , and break my heart , wht does he chosse to kick me out of my home , and kill my dreams ?

i wish i could say this to him !!!


i remember when u used to take me on a bike ride everyday ,
do you remeber that ? we were inseprable! , and i remember when you could do no rong , you come home from work and i jumped in your arms , i was so excited and so happy to see you.
because u loved me i overcome , and im so proud of what youve become , youve given me such security no mater what mistake i make your there for me , you kill my disapointments and you heal my pain , you understood my bizz and you protected me i tresure every year . that why i want my unborn son to be like my daddy , i want my husband to be like my daddy there is no one else like my daddy and i thank you for loving me.
haha lmao i still remember the expression on ur face when you had found out i has been on a date and had boyfriend ( your face was a picture)
words cant express my boundless grataude for you i appreciate wht u do!
Even if my man broke my heart today no mater how much pain im in i wil be ok , cos ive gta a man in my life that cant be replaced , his love in uncondition it wont go away i no im luky and i no it aint easy for men hu tae care of there responsibilties , love is over welming , you stopped my tears from falling , i love u so much daddy !

no one wil ever replace my daddy!


i would love to email him that or read it out 2 him but i cant those felings i has are gone , all those memories i have had have been ruined because i no what he has done 2 my family , i tell my self i love him , but i dont no wht this felling is i am holding .

when its ur dad thats hurting u mum , what the hell do you do , u have no choice but to take a side , so i chose my dads at first and then when i found out the truth i ran sdtraight to my mums side , where i stil am now .

my dad left for 3 months to think about what he wanted , i stook up for him when my family were calling him names , i got into fight with my mum about it , i got beat up several times by my mum for doing it !

scared the hell out of me when i think about xmas , what wil it b like , we wont be a family , we wont all b sat round a tree opening presnts that we have wanted for ages , i wont get to see that smile on his face when he opens a presants he has realy wanted , he wont b telling me , jorja go help your mum clean up and me rolling my eyes and saying for gods sake , this is making my cry cos im right it will never be the same ! there will always be some kind of fude in my family between my mum n dad , thats something i will have to deal with . MY wedding day , where do i start , it wont b the one i have dreamed about since i have been a little girl , because my mum and dont wont b together!

i love all my family soo dearly and would do anything , apsolutly anything to mend there broken hearts , i would die for each and everyone of them. i hate my dad because of the person he has become , and i hate him for hurting my family , i hate him for crushing my dreams , but deeep , deep, deep down some where im not sure weather i love him , wel i feel something but im not sure what it is .

this has made me grow up a lil faster than most teenagers i no , this will make me stronger to fight bigger problems in my life when im older but now i cnt see anything being a biger problem than losing sum one so close and tthem stil being alive but not been able 2 reach them because of the pain i am felling!

i wil try my hardest to not let this affect , benitas , mathews and luthers adult years , sophie is biiger enuf to no what he wants , meliisa is a gold digger she dosnt care about no one but her self she just wants him all to her self!

there is so much more that could and maybe shud have been sed in this blog , theres just to much to say tho .


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