WHY , WHY , WHY ME ???:( (u)

Why me ey

just found out that boy , that one person hu ive eva really loved and trusted has been cheating on me , i dno how to feel , ive been in this situation before but i was madly in love wiv him if u no wht i mean , the one person in the world i thought i cud trust now i trust no one, but the fing is i sed 2 him tym and tym agen
if ur gna cheat on me or feell the need 2 FINSH ME FIRST and i sed it tym and tym agen , and i told him last week that i was havin dreams about him cheating on me and hahah u no wht he sed 2 me , YOU MUST VE FEELING GUILTY ABOUT SUMTHING,
i was gd 2 him yano , i dint look at others boys while we was out 2 gether , i dint stand there and chek them out , i neva lied 2 him and neva eva eva dreamed of cheating in him, soo why me ? :( , i was there for him when he needed me

and i cant cum 2 terms that he has actually dun this 2 me , but its weird cos im really really angry at the gyal hu he slept wiv soo angry, even though she dint no he had a gyal friend i want to go round and hurt her , i really wna beat her up , but thats nt like me really im not that kind of person , but i no my emotions wil chnage dramaticllay over the next few days , one day i may nt care , one day i myt wnt 2 kil her , myt one 2 kil him , bujt when ppl ask me about it they like why havnt u beat him up or gna round and at least smaked him in the face :s :s

and i realy really dont no y i havnt dun that alredy i really dont !!!!

aparntly its unnatural not tp go round and kill them both !!!

and the thing that hurts me most is that when he fed me all the bullshit about y he was unhappy , he gave me hope for the futar sayin when things can b diff we cud get bak 2 gether but he was lien 2 me , he neva loved me , i was just there yanoo , hes full of shit , hes nt the person i fort he was , i dont no whats happend 2 him

i just really really cant belive he has dun this 2 me , i just about sleep , but when it cums 2 eatin im starvin but i cnt eat anyhu finks thats umit rong wiv inside of me

i dont want 2 falll in love agen because that person , i loved with deart live lied 2 me cheated on me and all the rest he has dun , i wna b alone for a bit i fink , n sort out skwl and col and that ,

cant w8 2 go traveelin when im older i really cant :D finks its gna b , ireland first , then spain , carabein, japan 2 b honet i dnoo lol , but i will finnsiish of in ireland :D

i shud just take this in my stride and learn from it but its hard

TIME IS A HEALER


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