AM I STUPID !!!

Wel jeeess this lad im talking to him , on the fone , tetxting , msn like back in the day befoere we went out , im tryna get on wiv lyf ,i dont hold grudjess and i wont start now , my best mate is callin me daft but tbh i wud love 2 her in my poistion and what she would do and what she would have done. i dont think i lopve him anymore , i think all the felings have gone , they have been ruuined etc
but am i bein a nob talking to him , i dont feel any hate wht so eva towards him , he made a mistake, we all make mistakes , but this time his mistake cost him sumthin tbh i dont no wht that is 2 him.

But now im tryna get on, it was a week 2 day , is that 2 soon 2 b moving on ? i dnt wnt 2 b miserbable ova him ,cos wht is the point , there isnt one , yes he has hurt me , yes he had fuked up my trust issues i have alredy , yes he has broken my heart, but live goes on , i have soo many things to look forward to in live and im 15 , there r gna b other people i fall in love wiv , there are gna b other boys that i think omg this is the one , and mayb i wil feel the same as i am feelin now iv everyone of them after we finsh, i have 6 years left until i finsh skwl . coledge and uni and start 2 go travelling wel 7 years cos im think im taking a year out , (lazy ggyal i no lol )


maybe he is the one , was the one , i wiil neva no now , but im zure i will find that one or that one will find me , I HOPE ,


i had a dream about him the other night and i told him about it , was about us re-meeting in 10 years and i hasd babies etc and we were best friends etc
i think it made him a lil sad but tbh i dno why but anyhu i realy cant w8 to have a baby i really cant , im so excited , i think i will have 2 give in sometime soon mayb when i have finshed my gcse's or a-levels , im ready to have ababy hehe I REALLY CNT W8, wohooo hehe lol maybe with the next boyfriend :D ifhes luky noo if im luky lol


my sleeping is getin better, my eating is the same , wel im drinking now lol ,,,
im gettin ova him i fink , just the eating bit think that wil the stya the same for a bit.



wel im going in to hopital next week , i think lol i wasnt listening to the dates

so il update :D


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